A recovery story is a messy thing. It has dozens of beginnings and no final ending. Most of the conflict and drama is internal, and there’s a lot more inaction than action. The lead character hides in the shadows much of the time, so you can’t even see what’s going on.
I joined up with depression around the age of 28. I have took beautiful photographs, and there are lots of me in moody shadows, looking as happy I could be, but feeling crushed ,destroyed and had no purpose in life.
First I thought its just that down period any person can experience, then it lasted months then years. I tried everything “Natural” to lift my mood nothing ever worked.
At the age of 32 I developed severe insomnia that I could stay awake for 3 consecutive days without single second of a sleep. This made my depression even worse. At this stage I started looking for professional help, I visited at least 10 psychologists, energy healers and psychiatrists. It did not work either.
I then got addicted to a natural shelf pill to help me sleep, it used to take me to an euphoria state before it knocks me down to sleep, after a while health care authorities found out that its a mix of prescriptioned meds they ban it and took it out of the market which resulted in a horrible withdrawal symptoms for me, it was the worst period of my life.
Migraine headaches started then, and increasingly intense anxiety about work, business, family obligations and I’ve isolated my self from any social activity. I missed many days, felt shame as if I were faking, and obsessed over every one of my failings. I spent months alone in my room refusing to do any kind of activities.
At the age of 36 insomnia was getting worse and worse, and no doctor or medicine could help me sleep.
So I started researching online, and stumbled upon an article about how neurotransmitters control our minds state and eventually our lives.
I did a blood tests to measure the levels Dopamine, Serotonin, Acetylcholine and GABA. And just after knowing the results I was able to take the right supplements and medications which changed my life of course into better state. My desire to live, work and socialize returned to normal.
My advise to anyone going though this is to do these tests. And go to a professional to analyze it and advise/prescribe the right medicine that will definitely work.
As setbacks happen. There’s no simple happy ending. But if you’re determined an inner shift occurs, and the new normal is a decent life rather than depression.
Check this LINK it will help you understanding how neurotransmitters work.